Found out something the other day. Johnny Depp in Alice in Wonderland is based off Elijah Wood...

Happy Valentines day everyone. I hope everyone is with their special someone.

"The once drunk, belligerent and now very dead poet Charles Bukowski once wrote, "Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must live." He was absolutely right. In skateboarding, we have the luxury of getting very close to madness at times, without (hopefully) going completely over the edge."-Espn

I find this so true about skating. I can spend way to much time on a trick with no result and just be absolutely pissed, never to over the top.

The last few days have been hard. It was diffrent when I had April. Just listing to her just kept my mind off of stuff. Which brings me to this...

I have been talking to Taylor Patterson a lot in the past few months and she is a cool lady. We have yet to meet, but we will one day. The friendship started oddly enough when she sent me a message via bookface saying something like "hey, you were in that one movie! txt me!" or something like that. 3 months later we still talk everyday.


Rebecca is in the middle of a messy/fucked up breakup(?) right now and we use each other a shoulder. We just hung out Friday night and had a blast. Dinner and some beers always ends up fun. I hope everything works out for the better and she ends up happy.


Last night we hit up Fitz and it was pretty funny. Earlier in the day something happend and I just felt really down the whole day. I had no idea why. So, after Joel and Beth did their thing we went to Fitz and hung out along with some of Beth's friends. Night was going good till Beth started being cold blooded.



Joel's best impression of the monster from hellraiser, or maybe the whiskey was setting in...

Sorry to the six people that actually look at this thing. I have been busy all week and haven't really been up to anything the last week. I'll give it my best to remember.

After throwing myself into someone I have cared about my whole life, it's over. I'm left with hundreds of questions that will never be answered. Childhood all over again.
It was an awesome weekend with her and was hoping for many more. I'll deal with it. I would for her.

The whole week was me sitting around the house. Feeling to blue to want to do anything. People knew it, but could do nothing about it.

The weekend was fast approaching and I had many plans. Rebecca wanted me to go to her birthday part, Beth wanted to hang out, and I wanted to throw a super bowl party. I ended up not going to Rebecca's house and just went to the bar and hung out. Saturday I had nothing to do so I went back to the bar. Joel racked up a bill worthy of mentioning. $40 bucks here.
Actually 2 of them. A nice $70 one here. It isn't easy being rich and being cool at the same time. Joel also went crazy and started having sex with alligators.

Beth wanted me to bowl so I did, and she didn't. Thanks.

The face I got for not wanting to bowl. Then she paid for me to bowl when I wasn't around and didn't bowl herself.

Sunday, I woke up and just hung out till 5 when the super bowl was about to start. People came over and we had a good time. They left and I crashed. It wasn't anything amazing, but it was fun.

I have been feeling really bad the past week. Worse then ever before. My spirit is officially crushed. It's got me thinking about what I'm gonna do with myself. If I'm not dead in 2 months, I'm thinking of moving south. Out of Minnesota. I really have nothing here other then some friends. Maybe all I need is a new start. Take my motorcycle and just find somewhere I can just hang out and deal with stuff. I was really hoping something worked out with her. I would have done a lot for her and it would have gave me a reason to do something. Now I just feel like leaving. I will see I guess. I hope my taxes are enough just in case I do leave. I'll be able to afford wherever I go for a bit. Maybe I'll get over this. Maybe.

It's so hard feeling like this and wanting to do something. Something better change.

I've always wanted her. She was the best. For real.

I would have updated this today with all amazing things that happened this weekend, but today has hit hard and I have no idea what's happing. Karma is a bitch.