Found out something the other day. Johnny Depp in Alice in Wonderland is based off Elijah Wood...

Happy Valentines day everyone. I hope everyone is with their special someone.

"The once drunk, belligerent and now very dead poet Charles Bukowski once wrote, "Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must live." He was absolutely right. In skateboarding, we have the luxury of getting very close to madness at times, without (hopefully) going completely over the edge."-Espn

I find this so true about skating. I can spend way to much time on a trick with no result and just be absolutely pissed, never to over the top.

The last few days have been hard. It was diffrent when I had April. Just listing to her just kept my mind off of stuff. Which brings me to this...

I have been talking to Taylor Patterson a lot in the past few months and she is a cool lady. We have yet to meet, but we will one day. The friendship started oddly enough when she sent me a message via bookface saying something like "hey, you were in that one movie! txt me!" or something like that. 3 months later we still talk everyday.


Rebecca is in the middle of a messy/fucked up breakup(?) right now and we use each other a shoulder. We just hung out Friday night and had a blast. Dinner and some beers always ends up fun. I hope everything works out for the better and she ends up happy.


Last night we hit up Fitz and it was pretty funny. Earlier in the day something happend and I just felt really down the whole day. I had no idea why. So, after Joel and Beth did their thing we went to Fitz and hung out along with some of Beth's friends. Night was going good till Beth started being cold blooded.



Joel's best impression of the monster from hellraiser, or maybe the whiskey was setting in...

Sorry to the six people that actually look at this thing. I have been busy all week and haven't really been up to anything the last week. I'll give it my best to remember.

After throwing myself into someone I have cared about my whole life, it's over. I'm left with hundreds of questions that will never be answered. Childhood all over again.
It was an awesome weekend with her and was hoping for many more. I'll deal with it. I would for her.

The whole week was me sitting around the house. Feeling to blue to want to do anything. People knew it, but could do nothing about it.

The weekend was fast approaching and I had many plans. Rebecca wanted me to go to her birthday part, Beth wanted to hang out, and I wanted to throw a super bowl party. I ended up not going to Rebecca's house and just went to the bar and hung out. Saturday I had nothing to do so I went back to the bar. Joel racked up a bill worthy of mentioning. $40 bucks here.
Actually 2 of them. A nice $70 one here. It isn't easy being rich and being cool at the same time. Joel also went crazy and started having sex with alligators.

Beth wanted me to bowl so I did, and she didn't. Thanks.

The face I got for not wanting to bowl. Then she paid for me to bowl when I wasn't around and didn't bowl herself.

Sunday, I woke up and just hung out till 5 when the super bowl was about to start. People came over and we had a good time. They left and I crashed. It wasn't anything amazing, but it was fun.

I have been feeling really bad the past week. Worse then ever before. My spirit is officially crushed. It's got me thinking about what I'm gonna do with myself. If I'm not dead in 2 months, I'm thinking of moving south. Out of Minnesota. I really have nothing here other then some friends. Maybe all I need is a new start. Take my motorcycle and just find somewhere I can just hang out and deal with stuff. I was really hoping something worked out with her. I would have done a lot for her and it would have gave me a reason to do something. Now I just feel like leaving. I will see I guess. I hope my taxes are enough just in case I do leave. I'll be able to afford wherever I go for a bit. Maybe I'll get over this. Maybe.

It's so hard feeling like this and wanting to do something. Something better change.

I've always wanted her. She was the best. For real.

I would have updated this today with all amazing things that happened this weekend, but today has hit hard and I have no idea what's happing. Karma is a bitch.

Crazy Shit has been going on since the last time I blogged.

Thursday I had a super day planned. I finished work and ran to my car. I was in such a hurry to see April I realized I didn't clean my front window and couldn't see. I jumped out and cleaned it off and locked my keys in my car while it's running. I started freaking out and was just lost for 10 minutes. Scared to death I started running around into other stores looking for anything to help. I picked up a coat hanger and ran to work and picked up my box cutter. After a hour of pouring my soul into breaking into my car I did it. Dirty and tired I drove to Chisholm. Arrived at my aunts and took a 5 minute shower and ran to April's. Jumped in her car and April, Elizabeth, and I went out and ate some food. We drove back and hung out for a bit. I left and hung out with my aunt for a good half hour. I then drove to Duluth. Arrived a it earlya nd picked up a beer across the street. Met with Ben and Ermbrother and we headed over there. I got there and ran away to get a better spot.

I felt really bad about not talking to anyone, but Larry to me deserves the best he can get. I bought 3 beers and chilled. Larry's fight happened and he won by the judges. I went and talked to the Falls crew for a couple till Larry showed up and said my peace to him and ran out. My lights don't work by themselves so I drove back to Chisholm to hang with April. Did that for a hour. Afterward I ran to the bar where my aunt works and got drunk. Hung out with the locals and it was a blast. I think 2 chicks were hitting on me, but I couldn't understand them and my aunt kept telling them they had no chance. I had no idea what was going on. We then closed the bar and moved to the bar next door. We hung out there and got to watch the funniest open mic night of my life. We left and I went to bed after staying up for 27 hours. I woke up 5 hours later and waited for April to call. She finally did and I went to meet her and her car didn't start. Picked her up and ate some food, took her to school, and called Travdad. Travdad and I went to Walmart and he talked about the vikings. April called and I got her and took her home. Adios.

Drove home 20 minutes after that. Arrived at home and went to a special acoustic concert put on my motion city soundtrack. They told the crowd of a special concert and I headed there. Great night and cool guys.

Went home and went to bed.

I woke up at 3 and went to work and after....

Larry’s 2nd fight.

Started off around noon not knowing if we were going to leave or not sue to freezing rain. Beth let Joel take her car and we were off. We made it there at 3. We decided to drive the extra 4 miles to coquet and grab a drink. We went to the bowling alley bar and Joel grabbed a Jack on the rocks, Adam took a Caucasian, and I stuck with the king of beers. After playing some foosball we decided to kick out the jams and play some pool. The rotation on the juckbox was Just dropped in, Watchtower, Whiskey bar, Raining blood, then Joel played Believe in a thing called love. The bar tender told us he would have paid for our drinks till Joel played that song. It hit 4 and we took off to Larry’s fight. We showed up early and hit up the bar there and got the same drinks. I got a jack and quickly realized Wild turkey has screwed up my love for hard liquor. Oh well. Watched his fight and was pumped. We left at the intermission and headed back to the bar with Smuda. Chilled there and had fun. We waited for Tanner also. He showed up and we headed out about a hour later.

Vikings lost the other day. Funny how Viking fans loved them till they lost. Guess it’s a bandwagon thing. Love them till they lose. They did a good job this season though. Instead of “pants on the ground! Pants on the ground!” They should change that to “ball on the ground! Ball on the ground”

My brother has come down to do something positive with his life. I’m scared it’s not going to happen. I’m going to be really hard on him to do shit and if he doesn’t break with his habbits I know I will ask him to move back with my parents with a month. I’m fine without him, I’m trying to help and if he doesn’t care, then I’m not wasting my time and money for a lost cause.