Mexican Food will rain supreme today.
It's been a long time since I've actually timed something on here. It's going to be hard to put this into words so bare with me. The last week has been challenging for me. Dealing with someone who I really had I hopes for let me go a few days ago. Although it was brief, It was good. I can't say great, due to me not getting anything I really wanted out of it. I really expected to act like a couple, but instead found myself doubting everything that was happening. Maybe she was never really sure and didn't want to try. I would like to believe I could have got a proper chance and really have shown her that maybe I could have been some special guy. I feel like I was cheated out of it and It hurts. I'll deal with it though, I can't do anything about it except hope she decides to give me a chance. We had a lot going against us at the start and I understand it probably didn't make things easy. I would just like a real chance.
This leads me into how stupid some people are in relationships. Part of why we went our different ways(In my opinion)was because she was maybe uneasy about us being different people. I found we had way more in common then I could have ever believed and that was something I liked. Two very different people that could have connected on many things. Why are so many people so scared of seeing other people? Last year was not a good year for relationships. Talking to people I find it hard to believe that little things like tiny fights are reasons to end it. Who out there believes they are going to find a perfect person? There will always be something to fight about. You cannot find a couple that has never fought. Maybe it would be grounds if you fought all the time, but seriously, an argument is nothing to stress over. Two girls have told me that "all we would do is fight." The funny thing is I'm not fighting. They think I am, but sitting there is not fighting. To me it's just a cheap excuse to get out. It's complete bullshit. People should be so lucky to have small arguments with their special someone. You find out more of what the people want. I just wish people celebrated dating different people.
I can't explain how angry it makes me dealing with people that end it over small stuff or think about ending it. We are here to try to find that special someone. Why throw it away for something that doesn't matter?
Sorry I'm complaining. This stuff just kills me. I'm going to try my hardest to never end up like them.
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